:: Friday 29-4-2005

Last week was so damn stressing!... I couldn't have one whole hour of sleep. I kept on waking up every 5 minutes worried that I haven't done my work or worried that I might wake up late, and fail my English course lol.. i really miss sleeping.. i reaaaaally reaaaally do, my friends used to tell me that i sleep too much, as a matter of fact it was one of my hobbies! but now... urghhh!!! UNI IT'S ALL BECUZ OF UNI :@! oh just shut up...

fdait 3yonk

Another thing that I miss doing these days is reading.. my heart seriously aches when I look around in my room and realized that I haven't touched my books for almost a month now, or maybe more. I want to continue reading "The Crazed " by Ha Jin wild el jin :P ... "Yusuf" by Amr Khaled .. I want to start reading "The Count of Monte Cristo" by Alexandre Dumas.. and a book for Ahmed Deedat .. ahhh there are a lot of books that I want to start.. I want more time tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiime, why can't there be 40 hours in a day? why whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?... ok.. ill shut up again....

She always used to describe to me how there are certain people that when hanging out with, you completely forget the world and don't notice other people who might be around you.. your fears seem to neglect you for a while and everything seems to be fun with them... you think that there's no one else but you and that person in this world .. and for the first time, I've felt this way and understood what miracle meant by what she used to tell me...
Well Well Devilish, i guess that would be a day to add to dxbgirl's history as for a first time to go to you know where lol that day i was extremely nervous and was roaring on everyone because the horrible mood of mine, but then you called and surprisingly and out of the blue, WE DID IT ... it's an evening to remember.... (wait for a couple of years to pass if you want it to happen again lol)

Dear *B*
I walked into your room that day and wished you'd be sitting there in any corner of it... I stood in the center of the room not knowing what to think of...... somehow I remembered the day I visited you right after Uni.. i was exhausted, but it was a relief to see you and hang out with you until night... I remember sitting in Cosmo cafe with you and discussing your wedding. We never had a lot to talk about together, but the little chit chats we used to have whenever we met mean the world to me....
you promised to come back soon....

Ill end this post and go get myself some sleep so I get up and review for my exam, De Rosa... '3ashesheeeneeeeeeeeeee bacher lol

~ Have you ever felt that you don't fit? not because a of flaw in you, but because you feel that your different, not necessarily better.. but just different...

~ It really surprises me how some people ruin a relation ship and act as if they're the victims when something goes wrong...  hmm?

~ I believe that true hatred does not visit a person who can love truly... you either love or hate... but both? I don't think so....

~ I have him to guide me, him to comfort me, him to cheer me up, him to make me forget, him to tell me that no one is worth it, him who his power can make me laugh at times, and smile at other... him to tell me that things will be alright...he's enough.. Allah is enough for anyone... so i won't cry for no one ....

~ I believe a person's patience has its limits, how much can a person endure? WHY should a person endure when he/she believes that there's no use trying, no I don't think a person should give up hope, but too much hope is not good as well....

~ My pride is precious to me, it won't be let go of for anyone.. and i mean a-n-y-o-n-e...

~ Thank you God, for giving me people who can make the world seem a happy place to live in.. and thank you God.. for giving me happy moments that I could go on living by for the rest of my life...

~ Loneliness does not kill me anymore.. I cherish it with all my heart... every single minute of it...

~ A smile to me is considered a sign of strength.. a person who can smile to you even if he/she hates you is a hero , in my eyes that is..

{ A SMILE costs nothing, but gives much. It enriches those who receive, without making poorer those who give. It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever. None is so rich or mighty that he can get along without it, and none is so poor but that he can be made rich by it. A smile creates happiness in the home, fosters good will in business, and is the countersign of friendship. It brings rest to the weary, cheer to the discouraged, sunshine to the sad, and is nature's best antidote for trouble. Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away. Some people are too tired to give you a smile. Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give. }

~ I believe that family are the only people who would always stand beside you no matter how deep your into trouble...

~ I know that cousins { F, N, S,  N , Dam3at el 5a6r, B} would always be there for me... having your cousins standing up for you all the time is indescribable .. you guys make me believe that there are still people worth living for on this planet =)

~ I believe a laugh with you sisters always comes from deep inside your heart, and a fight with them also comes from deep deep inside lol

~ If i was given the chance to choose my parents, I'll never replace my real parents.. I know I have the best...

I strongly believe that I should end this update right now or else I'd go on and on forever...

but before I go, I've added two more photos to my favorites, and my links page is up , though I didn't really work on it :/

Chawz,