:: Wednesday 30-3-2005

It's finally the end of the week, & am glad  that I handed in most of my work all though none were actually fully complete, & I'm also glad am leaving Dubai for a couple of days to meet up with my aunts and cousins, especially dam3at el 5a6r which I miss so much ( asmeeha bat9adg 3mrha :P)....

That day I really needed to go out because I was stuffed with work and didn't wanna set an eye on anything that would remind me of the university and the loads of papers I have to work on... & so I went out with my family... the place was kind of crowded, I thought I would still be excited about going out but once I got there, I felt lost... I felt so lonely... I felt like going back home. Despite the noise that filled the air, I couldn't hear anything at all except for the sound of my thoughts..
Seeing an old lady sitting on a nearby bench gave me a heart ache... I couldn't hold back my tears.. I miss my grandmothers... I miss their endless arguments... I missed their love and tender... I miss their smell, the same smell that all grandmothers have.. I miss their soft skin.. I miss the feel of their hands patting on my back until I fall asleep... a family with now elder person in it has no warmth at all... I miss that warmth the most...

I just miss having my grandmothers around...

GUYS! Guess who's online?? DEVILISH GIRL!, it's a dream come true for her, so go pay her a visit, you won't regret and I give you my word, she'll draw a smile onto your face =)

:: Saturday 26-3-2005 - 5:12 pm

To all those who've signed my guest book and comment box, THANK YOU SO MUCH for taking the time to view my website and leaving me ybour precious words =)

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When my head is stuffed with thoughts and ideas, nothing could ever stop me from sharing the scribbles that are in my mind with you.. you never fail to add a touch of humor to whatever thing we talk about ( and you never fail to make me stay up all night with you while I'm having one hell of a headache :P), you can always brighten up my mood with only a simple smile..
Some girls wish for their dear ones to become their real sisters, but to me, dam3at el 5a6r, you ARE my sister =) ...

Dam3at el 5a6r's bag :P

I Miss her

& I miss her mother even more! I can't wait until summer

I neeeeeeed to accomplish that thing ....
if it has the best for me, then may Allah make it possible....

ولربَّ نازلةٍ يضيقُ بها الفتى
ذرعاً وعندالله منها المخرَجُ
ضاقت فلما استحكمت حلقاتها
فٌرِجَت وكان يظنُّها لا تُفرجُ

:: Monday 21-3-2005 - 6:20 pm

I just realized that I need an archive page for the updates or else this page is gunna get crammed up! and honestly, I do not feel like designing layouts, I don't even like the current layouts that are in my website.
Talking about layouts, I've added the Digitalized page, it still needs work though...

I'll be busy the coming days with projects and exams, so I might not update for a while, wish us luck please!

 
قال السماء كئيبة وتجهم
قلت ابتسم يكفي التجهم في السماء
قال الصبا ولى فقلت له ابتسم
لن يرجع الأسف الصبا المتصرم

First of all, I wanted to thank all of those who left me encouraging comments in my comment box and in the forum, thank you guys, you made me smile when there's no room for a smile =) ...

I miss the heavy rain, and I miss those times when I used to spend the night shivering under the rain drops!... Thoughts and memories cannot help not pop up into my head ...memories of those who left a huge space behind ... I wonder how they feel right now? I always wonder... and will always wonder...
now it's time for hating our lives and hiding our selves indoors with all AC's switched on!... arghhh I hate this weather

Stress Stress Stress! I'm really stressed out these days and need to travel anywhere, and thanks to miracle she made me want to travel even more :P!... Uni really sucks, it's really boring and the good old me never does proper work for uni.
A lot of people occupy my thoughts and I don't know who to start with!.. I hate it when I worry about situations/things/people which don't even mean a thing to me. Stupid

Dear Someone,
Didn't I tell you that once silence is broken between us things will be more clear to both of us?... the discussion might have not made much difference to you, but to me, it meant a lot, and it made me open up my eyes to things that I have been missing lately.
Didn't I tell you that I'll always be there?... no matter what goes on between us, I do not ever want to make the mistake of breaking a true friendship... any relation ship goes through bumps, but it is up to us to maintain it in our own way...
Once again I apologize for all my weird actions, and for being the reason for most misunderstandings. I told you that both sides must try hard, just like in the game where two people hold hands and swing in a circle, but it seems like I wasn't holding on to your hands tight enough..
Things will be alright I promise, and you won't lose another friend again.. I promise you my friend

excuse the مينونة part lol

Oh and before I forget, I've added a guestbook & I also uploaded the ABOUT HER section, it isn't interesting but O'whatever..
that's it for tonight.

Ta Daaaaaaaaaaaa!

I can't believe I actually have a website once again!!... it has been hmmm... lets see.. 2 ? 3 years since I closed my website?.. I really don't remember...
A lot of things happened in my life during these years... and a lot of things changed in me.. I've went through a lot of things... learned a lot of things and of course, I grew up :P

One of the main reasons why I re-open my websites is those people who always cared... both Miracle Girl & Mishmesha never stopped encouraging me and nagging on my head lol..
thank you guys.. you make people feel special ...

You might read what I write here in my blog and understand... and you might as well read and not understand a single word ! ( this would be more often I tell you ).. but in all cases, what I'll be typing is what I really need to let out... it's my private space after all ..

Dear njoom el lyali, Lil sis, De rosa , Devilish, AWG & Miracle ( & her 2 lil sisters) thank you so much for drawing a smile on my face on that day... i know i ruined your surprise but hey come on!.. it was cool that way..
I know I have acted weird somehow but please do forgive...
it was a day to remember ...

Thanks De Rosa, I love it so much, you're talented!

It's so so so what I wanted, thanks miracle =)

Dear someone,
Hiding feelings never did any good to anyone, so if you truly wanna keep this relationship then it's up to you (and it was always up to you). I bet a lot of things are rushing in your head right now and I'm telling you, a lot are even made up by your own imagination and ain't close to being true. It's better to explain things and talk instead of keeping this wall of silence in between us, and honestly my dear, I prefer not to stay around you when you're avoiding me, you can't even get your self to look me in the eye!...and I hate to be treated as if I do not exist! I do love your company but not at times like that when you can't stand me..
 If I have wronged you then what you ought to do is confront me not avoid... you can kindly ask for a BREAK and I wouldn't mind because everyone needs a break don't you think?...
you know I'd listen & you know I'd always be there for you... but as I said before.. It's all up to YOU...
 

I don't have anything else to talk about right now, I updated just for the sake of having my website ONLINE ... nothing but my blog works, but ill make sure I add the rest of the sections once I have the chance...

Cheers,