:: Sunday 15-5-2005

I've spent a nice Saturday evening hanging out with my family, and it was more fun knowing that I don't have university the next day..

These days, the thing that i miss the most is my childhood, I wish I can go back to being a kid for one day at least... i wanna run around barefoot in the neighborhood with young girls and boys, chase freaky cats and drop by the grocery twice a day.. I want to have the same clear mind that has no worries nor fears except for the fear of bugs!... I want to run to my grandmother once again and ask her for 2 Dhs to buy my cousin's favorite sweet, fruitella.. I want to play soccer with ALL my cousins like we always used to do.. I wanna ride a bicycle and fall of it every 5 minutes and get bruises all over my knees and elbows... I wanna play with dam3at el5a6r our secret silly game that was more like a series.... I want to cry on silly things and laugh when am not supposed to...
Our life was simple.. and was revolved around ourselves & families, and that's how I like things to be... the more we grow up, the more things become complicated ... we have to let go of our innocence and sincerity and start acting in different situations with different people and pretend we're responsible and mature .. and acting mature is what I dislike the most ...

Dear Um Hamda,
I miss talking to you... & I miss staying over your house, the house is so dull by the way because there's hardly anybody in it.. I sneaked inside your room the last time I've been there, It was tidy!! can you believe it? I've never seen your room clean before lol... I miss having you making me laugh on almost everything, I know that people around us might have called us silly and irresponsible especially  you because you're a mother, but I love the way you are... although you've started a new life and have your own responsibilities and duties that you're not yet used to, you still hold on to your childish personality...
you know what I miss the most? I miss having people telling us that we look alike ! ... When I love someone, I feel proud being told that I have some of their qualities ...

I can't wait until you're back! hugzZz

I THINK that I should start working on my projects during this week, MIRACLE we have to arrange time for that boring project - ma9a5nahaaa
BTW There's so much things am planning to add to my website during summer vacation so stay tuned ..

Ill leave you guys with this nasheeda becuz i can't stop playing it over and over again in my mind ..

:: Friday 13-5-2005

wow it's been a pretty long time since I've last updated my page, I've missed this place..

Seasons come and go .. & days pass so quickly ... and it all adds up to the days I've been missing you.. looking around me, I find nothing more than spaces that need to be filled with someone... gazing at people around me, I know that even they have empty places in their hearts that cannot be occupied ever again.. It's strange how we love a person after he's gone more than when this person is around us, or is it just the fact that we don't appreciate things unless we loose them?...

Memories with you are uncountable.. every movement brings back a memory of you, even the slightest and stupidest action or object. Have you any idea that a towel reminds me of you?.. you used to act silly by putting it on your head and trying to make yourself look like Pocahontas just to make us laugh... you weren't a kid you know.. you were 18....
Mobile phones.. black mobile phones also remind me of you.. do u remember the day we were on a ride in the Global Village? your mobile phone got out of your pocket and started sliding behind us, you were panicking because the phone wasn't actually yours.. we were laughing so hard on you while we were supposed to scream our heads off because the ride was scary... i managed to hold the mobile and saved you from an endless yelling of your elder brother :) ... that day, you preferred to hang out with us -the kids of the family- instead of being with your friends...
we felt so special that you always kept us on the top of your list.....

Although you're no longer here, I still search for you among people... I still expect to run into you someday or hear news that you were abroad and just arrived!... I've spent endless nights making up some stories in my mind of how you could possibly come back.. No, I'm not objecting Allah's fate {el7mdilah 3la kil 7al} but it's only a way to put myself to sleep with some hope of seeing you.. am I ever going to get over the fact that you're gone?....

Anyways ..  I've spent the entire day yesterday with my cousins, one of them had a project which required some clips and photos of Dubai.. we hung out together and started shooting the buildings out there, we looked more like investigators and boy don't ask about the Indians that kept on smiling and showing their teeth thinking we want to take pictures of them :P here are some random shots, most are taken by my cousin.. guys i love you! thanks for the fun!
{ thanks Miracle.. your Casio was so helpful }

One final whisper...

{ De Rosa, things will be fine enshallah... and hey, never ever stop praying for things to be better... your aiming for the right thing at the moment, so don't let anyone cut you down... your not weak :) }

:: Thursday 5-5-2005 - 1:00 am

I'm still counting the days waiting for uni to shut down .. you know I always wonder why on earth it's always a fake alarm that starts in our university, I mean come on! even the fire men gave up on our university to burn down! lol ok that was mean, let it burn but not with people in there ( though I wouldn't mind my English teacher to be in :P!).. I received fine grades on my quizzes and projects but still not good though .. I dunno when ill start paying more attention .. hmm

It has been a while since I last used Photoshop to design something, all I'm good at right now is cropping, editing photos and adding a border to them! I'm starting to loose my skills, and idea's seem to find no way to my empty head. I don't like this at all, I've always loved graphics and designing them and I don't know what's gotten onto me.
I'll try to spend more time on Photoshop, Illustrator and Flash this summer Enshallah..

i forgot one of the 3 W's :P

Aint it the cutest thing ever? the shelve that has this adorable book holder is the only spot in my room which is actually organized it was a birthday gift from her and NO! sharing is not caring :P! mali!

Psssst

{ sorry my dear but you WILL drink the pleasure of life! for it doesn't only make you feel good and drift you to another pinky world, but it also brings me relief seeing you laughing like a psycho and enjoying every drop of it! thanks for being there all the time and thanks for trusting me with your secrets, and most of all thanks for making me feel important =) you know what I think  makes this relationship stronger each day? it's because it's full of tgafee6at and no mjamalat in serious matters.. in simple words, we can easily be who we really are and say what we truly think when we're together ... }

I'm in LOVE! yep yep I'm sooo deeply in love with this digital camera :P! Canon EOS 350D is a die for ! it's much smaller in size than the previous Canon EOS 300D.. I love my fuji and ill never ever neglect it but I DO WANT THIS ONE AS WELL!

dad? someone's gunna make you hate your life very soon..

anyways, ill leave you with a new simple wallpaper and some more new shots that are in my photography section..

{ thanks for all of you who took the time to leave me a comment }

Chawz,