the last couple of days weren't one of the best to remember, but
defiantly one of those moments that will provide you with a thousand
lesson to learn...
simply, a live was lost and another soul is left living with blame &
guilt, but will this loss make any difference to you?...
I couldn't draw my eyes toward you for more than a few seconds
for my eyes were not able to endure your expressionless face..
expressionless yet, i still saw shock.. i saw grief.. i saw pain that
will need so much time to heal... i prayed silently for you... i hoped
that you'd feel the message that was sent for you... i wished that
you'd understand why Allah planed for you to survived .... I wished
from deep inside of me for you to get over it and make out the best
of your remaining days... it saddens me to see a childhood friend in
this situation, but believe me, it's more painful to see this friends
go through all of this but still do not grasp the wisdom behind it
all...
guys, don't wait for a painful experience to wake you..
~ why do I have to hear these discouraging words from both of you out
of all the people in the world?.. I know I'm doing the right thing, I
know am engrossing myself in something useful, and you deeply know
this as well but you do not want to admit it.. can't you feel that
it's hard enough for a person to maintain his stability throughout
this weird and unpleasant life? can't you see that it takes a person
so much courage and strength to keep himself away from the filth of
this world? don't you understand that a person in such period needs to
be encouraged and patted on the shoulders?.. you are supposed to be a
guide for me.. I do not want you to worry about me in this life, but
I'm craving for the after one, can't you understand?...
it might be un polite to say it loud, but I will not obey you in
certain things .. things that i have the will to gain & I have the
ability to hold on to.. Sorry, but I do have my own ideas and beliefs
.. & yes, I will become stubborn when necessary..
devilish, yup I'm still keeping it.. hehe
despite all the "a3eeeeeech's" in this life, some words and some
people always have the power to lift your spirit up even when not
intended..
derosa, I cherish you
...
a final word to
devilish , it's the second time
I miss it.. forgive
meeeeeeeeee
Tuesday 13-12-2005
~ My days have become stuffed with little plans that I try to
accomplish on daily basis, and it's weird how I somehow manage to do
more than half the things that i list down *mashallah*!.. it just
feels gooood to cross each line with a bright yellow marker !
~This book is a must read for everyone, I recommend all books of the
author منصور عبد الحكيم
~ I can feel a count down going on ...
she could feel it as well, I
wonder.....
it's a quiet voice... it's a gentle breeze that's passing by.. I could
feel it secretly flying around me.. I find someone reaching out for
me, but it seems like it's not time just yet... despite of all
the fears, it's welcomed...
~ one single glimpse at you brings back a thousand moments that i
long to relive over and over again..
~ I miss them, each and every one of them, every single thing about
them..
De Rosa,
AWG,
Devilish, please do
forgive me for my absence...
~ thanks for wishing me luck everyone ... I truly cherish every single
comment..
~ if you're interested, check on my favorite
photography, i have added 2 photos...
~
Days have passed quickly upon you and glittered a bunch of memories
here and there across the years... you felt pain during your days, but
you learned how to heal them your own way... each day was a new
experience, each day was a new lesson for you , each day created a
stronger and better you... people on this day would blow a candle and
make a wish, but i believe that you'll blow yesterday away and keep
the best of it in a precious place where you can always go back to ...
i guess after all, good things really do happen on December ;) ...
Happy birthday my
dearest
companion, may your days & mine be filled with more & more telepathies
hehee
