Friday 1-7-2005 - 11:00 pm

Her photographs while put next to each other form the word Professional, Her simple, yet expressive poems speak of her sincere feelings.. Her digital art is always stamped by the words HER OWN STYLE.. 1-7-2005 is a day when another amazing person decided to come back to the blogging community :) Welcome Al Wasl Girl! *Hugz*

Finally, my extras page is up and running.. the Arabic Poems section is the only one that I've worked on, the work of both "dam3at el 5a6r" & "njoom el lyali" now has a little home :) ... ill be working on the rest of the sections as well so stay tuned...

{ DeRosa , Devilish & AWG } the only thing i miss about the university is being with you guys.. i miss you loads...

Monday 27-6-2005 - 2:06 am

It seems like I've been neglecting my page, but don't blame me, i couldn't believe that this semester was finally over.. If am not reading or searching the internet, you'd probably find me enjoying every moment of my boredom :P

I was going through some of my old CD's and came across something very precious! to me at least.. I've found most of my old layouts, the ones I used in my old website (www.dxbgirl.net) which is taken btw :@!..
After looking at those layouts, I've come to realize how i lack the same creativity.. & the ability to develop nice ideas.. I used to design website layouts even though I know that I wont be using them.. i remember that 3 of my first layouts were actually designed using windows PAINT...( such as the final fantasy X below)
i loved making layouts for other people, for the thought of having my work viewed somewhere other than on my own website made me feel happy...

i love this one, although I kept it for a few weeks only!

one of my favorites

soooo cute! yet it is sooo huge O_o

I ADORE  chibi maroku chan :P & I adore the layout even more XD

Today I checked a link she gave me a few day ago... I was downloading the audio files and listening to them one after another & I simply felt helpless .. I was boiling from head to toe.. I wished each of all those people whom their voices were recorded were right in front of me so I be able to .. to just... !! nothing seems enough to ease the pain that I feel.. especially after listening to this ANIMAL...excuse me but even this word is too good for him.....
tears of pain & hatred rolled down my cheeks .. I couldn't stand hearing such words said about Allah his mighty.. his merciful... I couldn't stand listening and at the same time, not being able to do a thing.. not a single thing... I know those who hate Islam fabricate things about this great religion, but never in my life have I heard such slavish things with my own ears and from ARABS as well!!.....
Thanks for letting me know about this website miracle, even though it's awful to read and hear such trash being said about Islam, but you're absolutely right... it's not nice when you don't know....

I wish some day we grow to have Halimo's knowledge and strength so we don't continue to be as useless as we are right now!....

{ اللهم وفقنا لخدمة دينك وأعنا على فعل الخير وسدد بالحق طريقنا وألهمنا رشدنا إنك ولي ذلك والقادر عليه اللهم من اعتز بك فلن يذل، ومن اهتدى بك فلن يضل، ومن استكثر بك فلن يقل، ومن استقوى بك فلن يضعف، ومن استغنى بك فلن يفتقر،ومن استنصر بك فلن يخذل، ومن استعان بك فلن يغلب،ومن توكل عليك فلن يخيب، ومن جعلك ملاذه فلن يضيع، ومن اعتصم بك فقد هُدي إلى صراط مستقيم، اللهم فكن لنا وليا ونصيرا، وكن لنا معينا ومجيرا وارزقنا الإخلاص وتقبل منا يا أكرم مسؤول }
I have nothing more to say.....
I'll leave you guys with 3 of my old wallpapers and one that i have made today using this picture... (click more to view them) and also, check Australia's album because it's finally up...

Wednesday 22 -6-2005 - words..

" Sorrow can take care of itself, but to get the true benefit of joy, you have to share it....."
Jeffery Archer - The Prodigal Daughter

" Never seek the wind in the field -  it is useless to try and find what is GONE! "
 Jeffery Archer - Kane & Abel

" Every free minute is a short story with a happy ending...."
Gregory David Roberts - Shantaram

" Wisdom, in one sense, is opposite of love. Love survives in us precisely because it isn't wise..."
Gregory David Roberts - Shantaram

" Sometimes you break your heart in the right way..."
Gregory David Roberts - Shantaram

 

 

Monday 13-6-2006 - I feel special..

I love my parents… and most of all, I love my mum!...

Every while I go back in time to when I used to be in my early teenage years, when I was 13 – 14 years old, I was such a disaster! People who have just gotten to know me would never believe that I am the same person… I hated everything girlish and was rude like street boys, and what’s really shameful is that I was mum’s biggest enemy. I hardly spent a day without making her hate the minute she gave birth to me lol I even reached the stage when I started hating her so bad… (yeah I know .. what I daughter! )

Then there came a year that was full of loss, sadness and pain… it affected all of us… and it affected me in person for only then I started to look at things differently and my personality started to take another shape… in simple words, I felt like I was born again into this world….

At that time I became closer to my mum, I hardly stepped out of home with someone other than my mother…. I hardly bought a thing without her being with me… I realized by time how great she is, and how hard she tries to fulfill all our needs even though we’re such a pain :P I realized that I love her more than anyone else in this world. The more time I spent with her, the more I felt guilty for how I used to treat her …

Although we both find it difficult to express our love to each other, but everything she does makes me notice how special I am to her… No I am not the only daughter, and no it’s not discrimination , but perhaps all mothers feel the same way towards their eldest daughters? …

ما غيرها تاجي على حاجب العين
أمي و لاحد في العرب غير أمي..

One thing I wish I was capable of right now..
I wish I can walk to you and hug you so tight without finding it hard… I wish I can tell you that I loooooooooooooooove you without my stupid shyness holding me back… it’s really annoying to be shy to show someone that you love them, and it’s not anyone, it’s my mother whom I’m supposed to feel free to express whatever I want to her!... this is one of the major things I hate about myself...

Thank you Allah for blessing me with my mother, for i can never imagine a day passing by without her being by my side...

اللهم أدم وجودها في حياتي.....

:: Saturday 11-6-2004 - more wallpapers

For more than 2 months, I've been facing problems with my ADSL connection which made me  neglect the internet and my website as well.. Thanks alwasl girl for helping me out with the wireless :) ( i can't wait until you're online!)....

I had a great weekend with my cousins... we watched Mr. & Mrs. Smith (which wasn't that bad) and then headed to Gelato on sheikh Zayed road,  we spent the rest of the day at home talking about anything and everything! thanks for the great time guys *hugs*


Shaikhooh's new mobile phone :P

cool van...  the lady in there is shaikhoh's new friend lol

The day before the hang out, i spent a nice time in Chili's with my family, and enjoyed every bit of everyone's food lol yeah am a fat cow when it comes to food ...

this update is full of pictures with nothing interesting to read...

why?

because I've noticed that all my posts are depressing, unlike how things used to be before I first closed my website ... I hardly posted such things in my old website which makes me wonder, what changed in me? ....

Anw ill be on BRB because you never know, i might actually study for my exams ! but before you leave,  check the latest in my wallpapers section :)

:: Monday 6-6-2005

Do you think that I like the way things have become between us? 

Since when has fighting and arguing been the only language that's spoken between the two of us? can you tell me ?....
to everyone, I come out to be the bad person while you know quite well why I cannot stand you.. why I cannot laugh with you anymore.. why I can't share all the things I used to share with you... you get pissed of when i start talking with you in a cold and rude way, i admit that this isn't a good thing! but you know fairly well that you deserve it....

I don't act the way I do out of hatred towards you, how can I hate someone who was a best friend to me ? how can I possibly hate the one whom I saw as an angel and never dared to believe something bad about?..... it's your fault... all your fault.. I never liked blaming people for whatever happens but this, I know is your fault.... you have ruined a relationship that was so dear to me... and for what reason?? for a reason that was supposed to change you to better not worse... you're not the only person who lost someone special, we all have.. but did we all loose ourselves as well the way you did?.....

I long for the old you.. I miss the old caring person you were.. I miss the person who was always around... I miss you when you were full of amazing qualities unlike now...... I treat you in a bad way out of anger... I'm angry because you're no longer you! you no longer have FEELINGS!... even the slightest bit of feelings!.... you hurt those who are dear to me... everything has become "take it easy" to you like they say....

Without you I'm lonely... I no longer have someone to go back to ... I no longer can seek for your safety... and again I tell you... it's your fault, and you simply don't, don't and don't want to change!... and if you do not change... then things will always stay like this between the two of us...... living under 1 roof, but knowing nothing about each other.....

but you know what?...... I won't give up on you.... until the last day of my life, I'll wait for the day a miracle happens and opens up your eyes to everything around you.....