Dear ones, despite my absence from
you, do not underestimate my love.. for even while away, my feelings
for each of you do not lessen nor become dry,... those souls who enter
my heart never exit it even if its what I want... I've shared way too
much moments with you to simply forget...
My days since I left you have changed, life has got me even more
busier and yet, I do not deny that it was my own free choice, and for
whatever wrong goes on, I will not push back any of the blame that I
deserve... it's not excuses that I want to give you nor silly jokes to
hide the truth, what I wish for is for you to know how dear you are to
my heart..... I believe my distance bothers you so, but please excuse
my isolated nature that I try so hard to rid myself of....
until the last breath I take, I will as for forgiveness for every
action I took which wronged our friendship.. and until the end of
time, I will cherish you all more than you could ever imagine I do...
هز الرحيل مكامن الوجدان
من ذي الصحاب منابت إيماني
وترقرقت دمع العيون في ليلتي
وتراقصت آهاتها في روحي
* thank
you, for being who
you are...... and accepting who I am..
Tuesday 5-9-2005
- 11:10 pm -still dreaming of yesterday
it was a memorable day.. to all of us it seemed like the old times...
just like 6 years back when meetings used to be a ritual to us
all...the laughs.. the screams.. the jokes and the special warmth sent
me a breeze from the past... I could almost smell the scent of the
family house.. feel the love of grandmothers surrounding us.. and hear
the voices of those who once shared us our everyday life.... I wished
for it to last forever...
Poor kalboozy was so hungry that he had to attack his cake lol
Dreams confuse me.. they either make me extremely happy and hopeful or
instead ruin my mood for days.. i did not inherit mum's genes which by
instinct leads you to Ibn Sireen's two huge dream interpretation
books... i do feel curious about what this or that might refer to but
in a way, i believe it is better to not dig between my dreams nor seek
for explanation no matter how worrying or irritating they might be..
is
it just me or do you people hate hate as in haaaaate to have certain
people pop up in your dreams?... especially people you despise in a
way, well, despise might not be the right word but you can say
that being around them does not make you feel comfortable... AT ALL...
until i appear again, Good luck everyone with schools and
universities!
* check the
wallpapers section for i
have updated it and forgot all about it lol
