Networking: loving it, Human computer interface: can tolerate, Software Project Management: YAWNING, Object Oriented Programming: TORTURE, a total brain killer...!
some people, draw a smile onto your face the first time you meet them, and continue doing so forever and ever... i Love you in Allah's sake Reem =)
i miss my tidy desk, i can't seem to find all these things anymore
i hardly read, no time, i really mean it, NO FREAKING TIME!
i miss the nice weather, i can't stand being outdoors.. its horrible.. my face blows up, n my eyes don't stop tearing, n God oh God, the sun that slaps one's face.. all that and we're still in MAY!
and i do not enjoy working at the end of the world... and i seriously DONT enjoy driving such a long way each and every day
i can create a planet size collage with these tickets! and don't even try RTA people, i ain't gunna buy the parking card :P!
but.. i cherish the VERY few moments of loneliness
and enjoy being in my car.. why nissan? well why not?
and i love the fact that i have a cassete player
and i love having him around "AAAhha"ing me every time i take a hard turn
it's a bless having thoughtful people around...
it felt good to find a gift - a book- on my desk early morning.. Noran, i am forever grateful...
and to have a complete stranger asks you if you're the birthday girl, and hands you a post it not, with such warm words... how can we not be thankful to Allah?... the simplest things can make a huge difference... a slight act of kindness, can wipe away all the stress we feel in this hectic life.... Thank you Allah for everything good and bad....
untill i am back someday, pray for me, pray that wherever i am, whatever happens, I stay on the right path.....
Tuesday 1-9-2008 - 1:20 am
Im so good at disappearing for such long periods arent i? and yes i do feel very guilty about neglecting this place...
so much has been taking place in my life, many changes particulary.. i got a new ride first of all! it's my HUGE baby! i love it to bitsssss, i am not fond of luxury cars, i love practicality & being different :P i thought, if i was to change my car, i must get one which i absolutley love without consdering other people's comments! dad was encouraging, that was the only opinion that mattered to me :)
Another change, is a change in career, i moved to a a different feild so suddenly! it's so hectic, so exhausting, but honestly put, i love it..! i discovered skills i never thought i posses, i met really nice people who make me feel good about myself and keep on encouraging me all the time, they kept telling me that i CAN DO IT, until i actually managed really well =)
i also had a short vacation that felt like forever, and i decided that i officially HAD ENOUGH OF THAILAND! ok shopping is cool there, but i prefer shopping here at home! dubai! where everthing is arranged in a way we're used to ... i loved Phuket island, i couldn't help but wish that my soulmate was with me there sharing those lovely views surrounding Hilton Resort... another thing i enjoyed was the freedom i had this time in Bangkok, we were situated at the center of the city where all the huge shopping malls were a walking distance from Intercontinental Hotel, i was able to grab a sister, starbaucks hot chocolate (which i hate btw!)and run around wherever and whenever, i love such freedom... i'd love to travel freely, alone or with my soulmate some time soon...
Garden Spells & if only you could see me , 2 recent novels i have finished reading, & Olive Readers is a book kept on hold until ramadan ends, which reminds me, Mabrook 3laikum eshahar! may we all be given forgiveness and the ability to forgive ! my thoughts are messed up, due to the lack of sleep which enshallah ill fix soon... good night!
Saturday 21-6-2008 - 12:30 pm - 19 pix!
How many months have passed by since my last update? i dont even wanna think of it! and before anyone throws me with rotten tomatos, ill leave you with these shots that'll summarize what i've been upto... although not fully...
i was not myself that day.. the news i recieved was too shocking that i could not face people and fake calmness...
am glad this semester went by finally... i've done fine i guess... didn't earn any A's but i prayed that i do not see any ugly D's from now on! and alhamdillah my prayer was answered :)....
اللهم ارحم موتى المسلمين وارحمنا اذا صرنا إلى ما صاروا إليه
have been seeing my dearest friend.. which takes me to the highest sky :)
yes, more & more books.. no matter how much i promise myself to READ more books than i buy, i just can't help it... it always seems to me like they'll one day dissappear & i wont have a copy for myself :P
started listening to "rawa23 alqa9a9".. its amazing.. recomended by miracle, and i highly recommend it to all for you too!
sooooo much too dooooooo
may you live happily ever after with your chosen one
i miss having you around dear Saggi friend :)
kuchiiiiiiiiiiii's get naughtier each day
Monday 5-5-2008 - 1:25 am
لا تُخبر بسرِّك بل أَمِتهُ
وصيِّر في حشا:َ له حجاباً
فما أودعتَ مثل القبر سراً ولا أغلقتَ مثل الصدرِ باباً
لا تحسب الأنساب تنجيك من لظى
ولو كنتَ من قيسٍ وعبد مدانِ
أبو لهب في النّار وهو ابن هاشــم
وسلمانُ في الفردوس من خرسانِ
عن أبي هريرة رضي الله عنه قال: قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم :«إنّ أعجز الناس من عجز عن الدعاء، وأبخل الناس من بخل بالسلام.»
ضحكتُ فقالوا: ألا تحتشم
بكيت فقالوا ألا تبتسم
بسمتُ فقالوا يُرائي بها
عبست فقالوا بدا ما كتم
صمتُّ فقالوا كليل السان
نطقت فقالوا كثير الكلم
حلمتُ فقالوا صنيع الجبان
ولو كان مقتدراً لانتقم
بسلتُ فقالوا لطيشٍ به
وما كان مجترئاً لو حكم
يقولون: شذَّ إذا قلتُ لا
وإِمَّعة حين وافقتهم
قأيقنت أنِّي مهما أردت
رضى الناس لابدَّ من أن أُذم!
لعَمرُكَ ما الدنيا بدارِ إِقامةٍ
ولكنها دارُ انتالٍ لمن عقِل
Monday 14-4-2008 - 12:53
despite all the distractions & stress, never have i been able to forget this day... this date... it is as if it has been engraved within my memory... on the most conscious part of it.. which seems to never sleep..... since 8 years, my mind has been alert for this day in april......
They say april is full of love & passion, excitement & joy.. but to me, this is not the case,, to me, it is full of .. Silence... grief... loss... & painful longing.... april was a turning point in my life, not a case of good or bad... but a matter of change in thoughts.. perspectives, and hopes in life....
In april, i learnt that life is not always a sparkling fairy tale like it used to be.. In april, i learnt that i will no longer view this life the way i used to, in a little girl's eye.. In april, i realized that my smiles in many occasions will be superficial.... delightful for strangers & meaningful for the few who can read pain... In april, i learnt what it truly meant to be in total shock In april, i experienced what it felt like to cry until no more tears are left in your eyes... In april, i knew what i feels like to be surrounded by tens and hundreds, yet feel.. hear.. and see no one at all....
In april, i realized how a person can live in denial... from sun rise, till sunset... every day of the week.... In april, i learnt what patience really meant.... for myself.. & for the sake of those around me... In april, i experienced how soothing it is, to feel closer to Allah.... In april,i realized that things will never,,, ever,, ever be the same again... ever
in my dictionary, april is the month of loss, unbearable loss that can only be maintained & eased by the guidance and help of the AlMighty...
i have a lump in my throat, that prevents me from expressing what's deep within... for so long i have been concealing, for many reasons.... & oh i do not at all advice any human being to conceal.... for it will show... if not on your behaviors... then in one's eyes..... the eye never lies.... don't hide your feelings, because in the end, WORDS will no longer be able to explain those trapped emotions that stab ones mind & heart...
april shouldnt be writen with a Capital A, it is not worthy of it.....
until i am in a less gloomy mood, may Allah gaurd each & every one of you and make your aprils full of love & joy...
